I’ll be just as happy as you are.
friends come & go. the ones who are still standing by your side in the end are the only one who truely do matter.
This isn’t one of those moments where I’m like “damn, I wish I could go back in time to stop this from happening” cause I know I made the right choice. I told you the truth, I told you what’s up. Don’t get me wrong, you’re a great guy. So sweet, so nice, such a gentleman, mature, funny, cute, all the great talks we have. You’re really such a great friend. And you put up with all my flaws. No matter how annoying I get, you just ignore it cause you know that’s how I am & I’m just having one of my moments. What more could I ask for? But I just don’t have the same feelings for you as you do for me. It was hard to explain why but after a while, you understood why. It sucks for me as much as it does for you. You didn’t get the girl you’ve wanted for the last few months & I didn’t fall for the greatest guy I’ve met. I tried real hard, you know I did. But I couldn’t, for some reason I just couldn’t fall for you. We both know that we had a great friendship & I guess that’s what it was. “Well he isn’t my boyfriend. But I really do love his hugs, his smile, his advice, his kindness, and the times we laugh together. I guess I just fell in love with our friendship.” Maybe that’s why, I was afraid to move to the next step cause I didn’t want to loose the great friendship we had. And it sucks now cause you know how it is & its like, I don’t even exist to you. I went from telling you everything, to having nobody to talk to anymore. I never knew I would miss you this bad. Its crazy; I really just sit here sometimes and check my phone every 30 seconds just to check if you might of texted me or something. And like today, I got home & I looked at my phone & I just felt like shit, all I wanted to do was sleep. It sucks. We don’t talk 24/7 like before. I just get ignored now when I try to talk to you. I still wanted what we had, I still want you as my best friend. And really, I miss you like crazy. And I’m sorry, I’m really sorry. I know I messed up. I just don’t know what to do anymore but give you time. But if you need to get distant to try to let go of the feelings you got, then that’s fine, I understand. Do what you gotta do. I hope you read this. I really hope you read this cause I just need to let you, I’m really missing you.
Me: Did he get mad?
Boss: Yeah, but I was just being real with him. Im not gonna be a softy and lie just to be nice. That’s how it is in the real world. Im preparing you for that.
Me: I know. *puts hand sanitiser on* OW! I have a cut! Your boxes cut me!
Boss: Thats how it is in the real world. Im preparing you. Boxes cut you here. People gonna cut you in the real world.
Me: Okay thanks Boss. I’m just gonna lock myself at home now and never go out again so i wont die out there.
Boss: okay good.
Hahaha! I love Lola :)
BAJA BAJA BAJA !!! HAHAHHA.
But only 1 reason why I don’t.
finally done with the 30 day blog challenge.
i did tho :) wooooh!
well lately you been going thru alot of ups & downs. but you really gotta say that this summer has been good. your slowly learning to let go of the bad in your life & hold on tight to the meaningful. and no, never give up cause think back 8 months ago, you were at your worst that you have evern been & you grew from that. your so independent compared to then. look at u! working, driving, paying your own bills, not having to go to your momma when you need something. you do your own thing now & thats great! once you move out, you’ll be great at all this. so no, never give up cause it would just be a waste to quit here when you’ve gotten so far. theres just one year of high school left, so enjoy it & keep your goals set in mind. remeber, in the end, your the only one who matters in your life.
keep ya head up.
“learn form your mistakes. grow stonger everyday.”
since you said bye.
To have more trust in people cause that seems to stop me form doing a lot latley and letting go something that isnt necessary.
Summer time. Its been great. A lot has gone good for me and I’m starting to just focus on me and only me.
oh yess i have :/
I have dreams and goals I want to accomplish & I’m not giving up until I fulfill all of them. No matter the pain or struggle, I won’t give up.
Man, really? That’s gunna take forever to do! Haha. Its my birthday soo I don’t think I have to do this one.
Pay more attention to all my school work :/
Let myself fall in love too fast.
It really doesn’t matter to me if we got in a fight or not. A best friend is more than that to me. She’s a sister & she’s like my family. I would call her family or who ever & find out where she is. I would go there as soon as I can & make sure she’s okay. Nothing can stop me from being with my best friend.
Once your at the age where you can do whatever you want, then you do whatever based on your choices. But at a young age, we do it to have fun. I don’t mind drugs or alcohol, as long as you have a limit to it & you stay safe. If your one of those people who just put their life on the line every single time they do it, then no, your stupid, just stop.
Hmm, well I’m catholic and we just need a president who wont fuck us over.
Im all for it! You do what you gotta do. If you love someone & they make you happy, then yes, marry them. It doesnt matter what sex they are or anything, as long as you are happy and crazy in love, then go for it.
Really, there isnt any… HA! umm, but a book that i was like DAMN after i read it was a child called it by dave pelzer. its a hella good book. you should read it.
Hmm, Someone?… well no, no one cause everyone who has walked into my life for a reason and I really wouldn’t want to let anyone go. I’m happy with what I have. Something; probably everything that causes negative feelings. Peace & love is all I need.
My best friends. Lynette, Jackie, Lorena, Regine & Deanna. All the problems we got; boys, school, family, or whatever… No matter what any of us are going through, we are ALWAYS here for each other. Yeah, some of us went through that time when we got in fights and ended up not talking to each other for a while, but in the end, we couldn’t live without each other and we had to say sorry, even if it wasn’t anyone’s fault. All we need is each others friendship. Its not even friendship, more like love you would have for a sister. I truly love all of them sooo much! And I really cant thank them enough for everything they have done for me. And after high school, even though we all want different things and all want to go to different places, my quote for all of us is going to be “no matter the distance, whether its near or far, we will always be, best friends forever” :) I LOVE YOU GUYS !
It begins today.
Day #1 = 115 pds.
Goal = 105 pds.
Eat. Drink. Run. Crunches. Work. Sleep. Repeat.
When I hear the word hero, instantly only 1 person comes to mind. No some guy I watched on TV when I was little with some cape on; But someone who has been in my life since the day I was born. My brother. He’s been there for me through everything. No matter what it was, he was always by my side. Family problems, school problems, boyfriend problems, heartbreaks. He was ALWAYS there, he was my shoulder to cry on. When we were little, he was my bully, but he never let anyone bully on me. He was the one who taught me to ride my bike & swim. I helped him train for football. He was there for me a lot more then my dad was, but that’s okay. Even now, when we have to make plans on what we need to do with a problem, we seriously have the same set of mind, its like we share a brain, LOL. We always end up thinking & saying the same things. We have the best bond a brother & sister could possibly have. And I love him with all my heart.
I would have to say Alicia Keys.
my huge hand writting :) lol
My long eye lashes & my smile.
Well I do have moments where I’m like “get away, I really don’t need you” but it has never been to its like “I don’t want you or need you in my life” cause everyone who walks into your life was put there for a reason & everyone in your life has made some sort of impact on you, weather its good or bad. But that impact helps you learn a lesson no matter what it is. And for those people who walked into your life and who walked back out, well that had to happen for some reason too. We just need to learn that everything happens for a reason. So I don’t want to or need to let go of anybody. Everyone walked into my life for a reason & I’m keeping them in it.
Hmm, I would have to say Mark Abuyo. We use to be soo close. Idk what happened :/ I really do miss you. But I know that I havent lost you as friend yet. Your still around, just not as close as before.
My dad. No doubt about it.